Only you .

I havent been blogging for a while. These few days, i feel so empty and hollow. I cant even describe it myself. I feel that im far from everyone. Especially from Syazriq. I feel extremely far from him. I usually try to make an effort to ask and make everything better. But now, im just so empty that all i feel is nothing and emptiness. And i know that deep down we both dont want this relationship to be saved. Its better be left like it is right now. Saving it will lead to nothing. I blame it on myself. All the mistakes that ive done in the past. I guess it plays an unusually big role to everything that is happening right now. The further we go. The further we drift apart. I tried doing everything. But everything is not good enough. My pride my ego has all been swept. I dont have any, anymore. I'am what i have left now. Even if i cry and scream. It will stay like this. Nothing would change. And yes, i feel the absence inside. The absence that i know he has replaced with somebody else. It hurts me. It makes me churn inside. But its the price i have to pay. The price that i have to keep on paying till all the guilt is gone. My actions, what ive done. I will be held responsible.

Babe if you read this. I want you to know that im not giving up. Its just that im falling and i cant climb my way back up again. Im sorry. I love you .